Life Update (How I’m feeling right now, kind of)

So, it’s been a while since I last posted a blog. I admit, I’m a bit skeptical about so many things now, and my view with social media has changed these past few years. I used to post a lot about random stuff in social media, especially on Facebook, but I realized it’s not really an ideal thing to do as people can be harsh and privacy is a good thing. However, I also feel less expressive and self-expression is healthy. Well, maybe the reason why I took a break is because I just didn’t know what to post anymore and I overthink a lot about what people might think. I also didn’t want people to think that I am self-centered or vain as what I think about others who post in social media lately as they always just post about what’s going on with their lives, the “me” concept, and just wanting to be praised and just seeking for attention. I was that. And I didn’t want to be that anymore. I want to be someone who is non-judgemental, selfless, kind. I already am the apple of Someone’s eye and I don’t have to ask for validation from anyone anymore as I have already been validated by the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords. Yes, I still believe in Jesus, despite the criticism and persecution I have experienced after I proclaimed that I believed in Him and claimed to be His follower. Well, I admit I wasn’t a good follower. I failed a lot. However, I realized that not only I, but most of the great men in the Bible, also, in some way, fell short and stained the Holy name of God. I guess it’s true that

"No one is righteous, no, not one." - Romans 3:10

and that

"We all have fallen short of the glory of God." -Romans 3:23

Well, I wrote what I feel about writing and somehow it almost always goes in that direction (Christianity). Maybe knowing Jesus in an intimate way really impacted my life and what Kim Walker-Smith said is true: “You will never be the same again when you encounter the love of God”. We can’t shut up. Peter, James and John didn’t. Paul didn’t, even when he was in prison. So, I encourage you if you’re a Christian who is silent and hesitant to preach the word… I became silent and hesitant too. I thought about pleasing the people rather than pleasing God. But now, it doesn’t matter anymore. I have started this and God will surely finish it, and it is His will for me to share the Word. What better thing to share about now than the Timeless Truths of God’s Word and the Blessed Hope who is Jesus Christ?

“In this world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.” -John 16:33

Photo source: https://www.desiringgod.org/articles/all-god-honoring-sorrow-is-rooted-in-god-honoring-joy

This world is not our home. There are a New Heaven and New Earth prepared for the children of God and it’s way better than the world we currently live in. All we have to do is to believe in Jesus Christ, ask for forgiveness and repent from our sins, and follow Jesus all the days of our lives until we see Him face to face.

We look at the creation and we see its beauty. But how much more beautiful is its Creator – the One who designed all this? Won’t He be 10x, 1000x, 100000x more beautiful?

“No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him.” -1 Corinthians 2:9

So, get to know your Creator. He has made everything, yet He longs to know us, mere human beings. Have a conversation with Him. He is approachable, kind, slow to anger, and full of mercy and most of all He loves you with an unconditional love. ∞

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Thoughts about the Illuminati in the Music Industry

I’ve decided to write about this particular topic because I want everyone to be careful with the kind of music they’re listening to. Music is good if we listen to the right songs. It could bring us healing, inspires and encourages. It also helped people overcome depression, anxiety and many other stresses in life. However, music has also been a tool to taint, disensitize and distract the younger generation.

Photo source: latimes.com

You see, sometimes, we are so blinded to what we are actually allowing ourselves to go in and be a part of. If we allow these things, we make ourselves open for the enemy to legally come into our lives and steal, kill, and destroy us and takes us farther from the Truth and that’s very sad.

The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.

John 10:10

We need to be aware that this world is corrupt and we need to save ourselves from this perverse generation coz were living in the end times, we’re living in the last moments. We need to repent from all sin. We need to put our faith and hope in Jesus Christ, receive the Holy Ghost and be baptised in the name of Jesus Christ. It’s a free gift.

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

-John 3:16

The Illuminati… Hmmm. People say they’re just a meme or a myth but I think they are pretty serious about what they’re doing which is lead people farther from the truth. They seek to ruin the lives of young men and women by seducing them to buy their Satanic music and buy their malicious albums. I’ve heard that they do a demonic prayer over every album sold. And what are these signs and symbols in the music videos for? I think this so called “Illuminati” really has an evil agenda and it’s to ruin people’s lives.

Illuminati Signs and Symbols That You’ll Notice in Pop Music Videos

The All-Seeing Eye, The Eye of Providence or the Eye of Horus
Pyramid with the eye at the back of the one dollar bill

Okay, so personally I’m gonna share what I have discovered and it hurts because these guys are my favorite. I even wrote a blog post about them particularly V and Jimin’s friendship. But lately, there are things that bother me. For example, the “eye of the Providence”. I always notice Rap Monster cover his eye in most of his photos. Why does he do that?

Okay, maybe it looks cute but…
I don’t know, RM. I don’t know…

I’ve been a fan of BTS since 2017. I loved how they express their music. They became my source of joy, and I enjoy watching their videos until 5am. But…

Onsource: www.pinterest.ph/pin/644788871628197560
Ankh is an ancient Egyptian hieroglyphic symbol that was most commonly used in writing and in Egyptian art to represent the word for “life” and, by extension, as a symbol of life itself.
It was especially commonly held in the hands of ancient Egyptian deities, or being given by them to the pharaoh, to represent their power to sustain life and to revive human souls in the afterlife. (source: Wikipedia)
The Eye of Horus is an ancient Egyptian symbol of protection, royal power, and good health. The Eye of Horus is similar to the Eye of Ra, which belongs to a different god, Ra, but represents many of the same concepts. (source: Wikipedia)
BTS Jungkook
The Sigil of Baphomet is the official insignia of the Church of Satan and is trademarked and copyrighted by the Church of Satan.
 Sigil of Baphomet first appeared on the cover of The Satanic Mass LP in 1968 and later on the cover of The Satanic Bible in 1969. (source: Wikipedia)
BTS Jin, flaunting his shirt with Sigil of Bophamet in a pyramid just like the eye of Horus at the back of the one dollar bill
The pyramids of Egypt was made in the time of Pharaoh as a stock room for grains. It also is a symbol of wealth and prosperity. The ancient Egyptians bury their prince and princesses in the tomb inside the pyramids and they bury their gold as well.
The evidence is everywhere, hidden in plain sight,” Philadelphia Weekly noted dryly more than a year ago. “It’s in his videos. It’s in his lyrics. It’s in the pyramid-shaped sign he makes with his hand, which you foolishly believe represents his Rocafella/Roc Nation labels.”
In fact, the Weekly notes, the Illuminati-music conspiracy theory does not end with Mr. Carter. (source: m.eonline.com)
Jay Z’s other half, Beyoncé claims that she has an alter ego named Sasha Fierce who seems to possess her whenever she performs.

I believe that many, if not all, of the artists in Hollywood are in the Illuminati or are puppets of the secret society. Their mission is to influence the younger generation to worldly things such as sexual immorality, love for money and fame, lust, strife and rebellion. I just think that we, as listeners and music-lovers should be careful as to what we are listening.

For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places.

Ephesians 6:12

Ariana Grande’s “God is a Woman” is definitely blasphemous. God has no gender. However, the Bible describes God as a Father. Jesus Christ too, is man, never a woman. These artists are misleading us and we act as if it’s ok.

Just like how a Ouija Board can summon and invite evil spirits and how witches casts spells to bewitch their victims, I think we are being bewitched by the charms (including the Satanic signs and symbols) of these artists, too. The Bible said that if you are a friend of this world, you are an enemy of God. And this world is just temporary so we must focus more on what’s eternal and what could save our souls. I have written a blog about depression which led to death of famous Kpop member Jong Hyun of the Kpop group SHINee. After his death, news spread that fans all over the world killed themselves too. Being addicted to these things will not lead to life, it will only lead to death.

However, if the Illuminati exists, God exists too and is far more greater than anything and anyone. He existed before anything else as He is the Beginning and the End. Every name will bow down and every tongue will confess that Jesus Christ is Lord. We must live as though this world is just temporary, focusing on the more important things such as cultivating our relationship with the Lord, preaching the Truth (Gospel), reading the Bible, helping the poor, loving God above all and loving each other as we love ourselves. God is telling us not to conform to the patterns of this world anymore but be transformed by the renewing of our minds. -Romans 12:2 This way, we’ll know what His will truly is; His good and perfect will. ♥️

Art, painting, The mindset of happiness, Things I Love

Art is a Blessing

I’ve always loved art since I was a kid. I watched my mom draw using a chalk, a happy little monkey on a tree in the walls of her bedroom and I was awestruck. I wished I could do it too. When I was a little older, me and my sister, cousin, and some girl friends, got obsessed in drawing girls and random things such as nature, landscapes, etc. When I draw a girl, I draw the face first, then the hair, afterwards the neck, then the body, and lastly, the clothes. I’d also give her some accessories for extra coolness. And sometimes, I’d draw a shoulder bag, too.

Now, in the age of iPads and gadgets, kids tend to absorb rather than create. Back in the days, kids loved playing made-up games outdoors such as luksong baka, patintero, shatom, bato-lata, etc. I also loved to play “bahay-bahayan” with my childhood friends. We widen our creativity by making our own mini home. We had a kitchen, living room, bedroom, and even our own car! I will forever treasure my being a 90’s kid. One of my favorite things to do as well is climbing trees. I remember being on top of a tree, feeling content, thanking God as I eat its delicious fruits.

In high school, I bump into art once in a while during my art classes or some random school project. Art is everywhere and I think expressing oneself is necessary not only for artists but for individuals in general. It is said that “we were created in the image of God” (The Bible, The Book of Genesis Chapter 1 verse 27) and God made all things beautiful, so it means we too, are given the freedom to create something beautiful.

I think there is no right or wrong way in expressing art; although most artists nowadays use their gift in art in rebellion against God, expressing their anger and hate towards Him when they should be thanking Him for what He has given. Art is a blessing and is meant to be enjoyed. When expressed properly, it can have positive impact and could change the world.

“God saw all that he had made, and it was very good.” (The Bible. The Book of Genesis Chapter 1 verse 31)

The mindset of happiness, Uncategorized

New hobby (How I deal with Bipolar Disorder and Depression)

So, I found a new hobby. It’s called watercolor painting. I always loved to draw and paint and I realized I have forgotten about it as I got focused on “more important” stuff. I don’t know, God gave me a talent and skill so might as well get the most out of it.
They say to never forget the kid in us, so we do what we love and we love what we do. 😉

I enjoy painting the night sky, the moon and stars. I use watercolor paint, brush, and a white pen for the stars. Using the white marker gives that whimsical effect but you can use white paint if you don’t have a white pen. And if you commit a mistake it’s all right,

“There’s no mistakes in painting, just happy little accidents”. -Bob Ross

I also find painting flowers relaxing. I love to blend the pastel colors and paint it’s nice petals. You don’t really need to think too much, just open your mind and let creativity and imagination do it’s thing.

I also paint sceneries, landscapes and trees. Most of what I draw, I search on the Internet then I paint my own version, but I give credit to the original artist of course. I will paint my a canvass someday.

I enjoy painting a lot and I think I’ll keep on doing it till my hair turns into gray. ♾

My journey with God, Seriously non-serious stuff, TOTGA

An Open Letter to TOTGA

You married a Marian, I’m a Christian. I’m truly happy for you and I know I will be happy, too. Just let me heal this time and in time, I will also meet the right one for me. Right now, Jesus is the perfect One. He is the only one who can truly satisfy our longing hearts. In Him, we live and move and have our being. I am seeking to glorify Jesus all the days of my life, although I admit I failed miserably. Still, He is constant. He is ever so patient and a faithful, loving Father. I’m not gonna lie, it’s tiring to be a Christian. I get criticized a lot. Jesus was or is too. He suffered a lot for our sake so we could be free from eternal damnation which is destined for the sons of disobedience. We can’t argue with that, God is God and He is good. Satan is the real culprit and he will get what he deserve. You may call me delusional, but I call it faith. I was raised a Christian but it’s my choice to remain one because I have encountered Jesus and He’s the best. I have fallen, yet I rise. I could just remember how it felt. It’s like spring in summer and there’s so much love. It’s what I keep on searching for. Kim Walker was right, “You will never be the same after you encounter the love of God”.

I love Jesus. I want to obey Him even if that meant not getting what I want.

Even if you married a Marian, I hope she is also a Christian.

My journey with God, Real Talk

My Testimony

If you ask me why I preach about Jesus, my answer would be because I believe in Him. Back in 2009, I’ve had a personal encounter with Jesus. You may say I’m delusional but I know it is real. From a church-goer, I became involved in the music team, preaching the gospel with boldness to anyone who is eager to hear it. The characters in the Bible became so real to me as I read the Bible everyday at 5am although I wasn’t a morning person. Right now, I’m still working on my relationship with the Lord again so I faithfully read the Bible even if there are days I don’t want to. I tell you, once you encounter Jesus you will never be the same again. People may criticize me for following Jesus but it’s a usual thing for Christians, as Paul said “Anyone who wants to live a godly life in Christ Jesus will be persecuted” -2 Timothy 3:12

We’re easily caught up with the things of this world that we forget what is TRUTH. If you wanna know what is TRUTH, read the Bible. It is written by different authors over a period of approximately 1,500 years, speaking life to it’s readers everytime coz it is alive. You have to have an open heart though when you read it.

These past few years, I had to constantly remind myself that I belong to Jesus coz there’s a voice that tells me otherwise which is the enemy of course because God has always been good to me and draws me back to Him everytime I go astray. John also states that “if anyone believes in Jesus, to them He gave the right to be called children of God.” -John 1:12

I had a conversation with one of my best friends a month ago, telling her that I don’t feel like I’m a child of God anymore. I also told her I thought I’m meant for heaven, but instead I’m meant for hell. Yep, that’s how far I’ve fallen. She told me that all of us are meant for hell, but Jesus came to save us from all our sins and to give us eternal life as a gift if we just believe in Him. That’s all it takes. I believe, otherwise I wouldn’t be preaching to you. All my life, I never doubt whether or not Jesus existed. There are more evidence of His existence than of His absence, for me.

“Blessed are those who have not seen, and yet believed.” -John 20:29

“For all have fallen short of the glory of God.” -Romans 3:23

If you’re interested to have a one-on-one Bible study, DM me on my Instagram account: @elainejoycef

To God be the glory! 💖



I developed a love for herbs around year 2017. It’s very useful especially in cooking savory dishes and making desserts. Mint, though can be used in smoothies and salads.

I also have aloes specifically aloe vera. I propagated it using the fertilizer I learned from Youtube which is banana peel, potato skin and egg shells, mixed and left to ferment for two days.

Here are my aloes now!

It produced so much that I need to replant the baby aloes in another pot.

The herbs that I planted recently are peppermint, mint, dill, sage, parsley, and cilantro. I use mint a lot when I make smoothies and I use dill when I make a potato salad. I haven’t used parsley, peppermint, cilantro yet, but I’m gonna use them in the future, for sure. Unfortunately, my sage didn’t grow so I’m going to plant some seeds again. I think sage is hard to plant in the tropics coz I already planted it twice but it didn’t grow.

One thing to remember in gardening is to make sure you label your plants by name, unless you are familiar already with the herbs. I tend to forget so I named each of them.


It’s Okay To Not Be Okay

It’s okay to not be okay
When all seems undone
You can always cry a river
Or create your own sun

It’s okay to not be okay
Don’t worry bout a thing
Sing when you feel like singing
And happiness it’ll bring

It’s okay to not be okay
No matter what they say
Forget the past and learn to breathe
Love will find a way

It’s okay to not be okay
Even when skies turn gray
Know that there’s a purpose
In time, you’ll be okay

The mindset of happiness

Jesus loves me

I was feeling depressed the moment I woke up today so I asked the Lord to send me a flower to brighten my day and to “test” God.

So I went with my morning routine – daily workout, breakfast, watered the plants, organized, and watched random tv. At 3pm, I took a bath. As I was putting on the shorts that I wore the other day, I noticed there was something at the right pocket. I got the “thing” slowly and was surprised to see a sunflower, detached from my black hair tie. I was amazed because I was asking God for a flower this morning and God knows I love sunflowers as it gives me a good vibe. Jesus made me smile.

I realized that the flower was not given to me, as my happiness will not be given to me. Happiness comes from serving God, doing His will and it’s something you choose to give yourself. 🌻

My journey with God, Real Talk

One thing I’ve learned from my past relationships is that if God tells you to let go of something, let it go. No ifs, no buts, no questions, no commas, no semi-colons, let it go. Ask God to give you the strength you need. It’s hard to let go of something that is most dear to you but God will give you something no eye has seen, no ear has heard, far better than you could possibly imagine. Do you really want to settle for something less? God only withholds something from you if He thinks it’s not good for you. Maybe it’s something that might cause you to sin. And beloved, sin only leads to death. So if God tells you to let go of something, just let it go.